I figured you guys deserved a proper update from me instead of my tweets about masterchef and my terrible story writing. I have 41 followers now which is good. Thanks to all of you. Here's whats been happening.
So i got my results from the past semester and i did so badly that i got an academic warning. That pretty much means that if i dont improve this coming semester i'll get kicked out of uni. Not exactly the best feeling in the world. Due to the results and the fact that i've been losing interest in my courses i have changed majors. I am now doing mining engineering which i'm hoping will go better. It is more assignment based than exam based which will be good for me. I also considered changing to a bachelor of reginal and town planning but i didnt get a chance to speak to the course advisor (yet) and i'm not sure if i'll be able to change mid-year. Also the fact that my GPA is abysmal probably wouldnt help either. I had my special exam today which i failed massively. I had sort of given up on it because i'm changing majors and the actual content wasnt really appealing (i know its bad and i should have tried harder). I've decided to put this past semester behind and just try and move on and make sure i pass everything this coming semester. I really dont want to get kicked out of uni.
So a couple of weeks ago I had to pick up my sister and her bf from the airport and take them back to their place on the sunny coast. Then i drove back to the farm and stayed with my family for a couple of days. It was good to be back on the farm. There's something comforting about it. The thing i miss most about the farm is the pot belly stove and also i kinda miss the shower (I realise how silly this sounds). I mucked around with my two little brothers and i went and saw The A-Team with some friends i hadnt seen in a while and it was mostly good. However, if i have to hear my mother say given the lifestyle you're leading once more time . Actually the one that really annoys me is when she asks if i'm "seeing someone". There's just something about the way she says it that's annoying. So i had a little disagreement with my mother towards the end of my stay. And they've sort of conitinued on and off for the past week or so. Back to the A-Team, I'd totally do jessica biel. Just thought you should know.
Now if you've looked at my twitter you will know that i've been on 2 dates lately, with the same guy. We have tentative plans for another one tomorrow night. I'm not sure if i should call them dates though. I'm really bad at this stuff and i'm already getting nervous about tomorrow and i dont even know if it's definitely happening. I'm not sure if this guy likes me and here's why. He's not online much which i'm alright with but he doesnt really text me either. He'll respond to my texts but i havent really got an out of the blue text from him. And i dont want to text him to much incase i annoy him or he doesnt like me. I should however say that when he replies to my texts he's really nice. I asked him out last saturday (it was very short notice) and he said he would've loved to but he was meeting friends. So i'm not really sure if he likes me. I think i'm convincing myself that he doesnt like me so i wont be so hurt if it turns out that way. I guess i'll have to wait till tomorrow night and see. On our second date we went to the movies and i was too nervous to even hold his hand, that's how bad i am at this stuff. I cant read signals and stuff. I need to be more confident, easier said than done.
So my last two post have been that story. I got 3 positive comments on the first part and 1 positive comment on the second part so if that continues i'll get 1 negative comment on the third part. I'm not really sure when i'll get the third part done cause i'm sort of writing it as i go, off the cuff. If anyone has any ideas or suggestions i'd welcome them. You'll probably get part three sometime before the end of the week seeing as next week i start back up at uni. I really need to get a job this semester too. i'd love to work at a cinema or something. Just as long as its not in the hospitality/food industry. I've done enough of that already.
At the moment i'm trying to see how long i can go without masturbating. I was meant to start yesterday but that didnt really pan out for me. Now the reason i'm doing this is because i masturbate too much. Also someone told me that if you cum in the same way too much then you wont be able to cum in other ways. Now i'm not sure how true this is but i'm willing to give it a go. So today is day one of my no masturbating challenge. I'm hoping to make it to the weekend at the least. I'm not sure how, or what i'll do with all my extra time so if someone wants to give me some ideas.
I got some cheap canvases this arvo and did some painting. It was fun, even if my painting looked better in my imagination. It's not finished yet and i'm not sure what to do with it. It looks alright from a distance but if you're too close it looks kind of crappy. Its a bit of a landscape but i dont think the colours are quite right. Maybe i'll put a picture of it up at some point. Its in my room at the moment cause i dont want my brother to see it, or his gf.
I'm sure lots of other things have happened but thats all i can think of at the moment. Hope you're all alright.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Part Two
I needed a bit of a distraction from the big steaming pile of shit that is my life so you guys get this. Let me know what you think.
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Oliver turned up to school on monday morning fifteen minutes before the bell rang. He was an extremely popular among both staff and students. His ability to move between the different groups and cliques at the school without trouble got him a lot of respect and made him the well liked boy that he was. People rarely had a bad word to say about him. The girls wanted to be with him and the guys wanted to be friends with him, or be him. Oliver walked through the morning rush at school, greeting staff and students alike. He was tall and well built. Not muscular but toned, with what seemed like perfect skin and hair. He was sporty and it had helped shape his body. Oliver put his bag down and greeted his friends. They were discussing his party from the weekend. Recounting stories of who had hooked up with who and what they'd done. They turned to Oliver and asked him if he'd scored any action.
He offered his usual reply, "A gentleman doesnt kiss and tell."
They pressured him unsuccessfully for the next 5 minutes until the bell rang for the start of class. Oliver's friends dispersed into the crowd, heading towards their various classes. Oliver picked up his books and made his way towards his physics room on the other side of the school.
Alex walked into the noisy classroom and sat beside his friend Emily. He was skinny and deceptively tall, often walking with a slight hunch to hide his height. His wild curly hair had been tamed with water today.
"How was Oliver's party?" asked Em
"Its a pity you couldnt come"
"That bad?"
"It wasnt bad," said Alex, "but you know how those guys can be. And those girls as well."
"Yeah. I heard about Sally this morning. Sleeping with Tom then Luke then Tom again."
"I know. Those two guys are so disgusting too. I tried to stay away from them for most of the night."
"That's understandable. I dont know why Oliver is friends with them."
The second bell rang signalling the start of class. Oliver walked into the room and sat down beside Alex in the back row. He flashed a perfect toothy smile over at Alex and Em. The kind of smile that could melt ice and buckle knees. The elderly physics teacher walked into the room and started teaching without much of a change in the noise level. Emily leaned across the desk to talk to Oliver.
"How'd your party go on saturday?"
"It was good, a pity you couldnt come though."
Oliver was able to flirt with anyone. It was part of the reason he was so popular, he made people feel good.
"How'd you pull up on Sunday?" asked Alex.
Oliver looked towards Alex with a slight smile on his face. His bright green eyes seemed to bore right into the back of Alex's brain.
"I had a bit of a hangover," He said, "but i can remember the whole night."
He flashed another big smile at the two of them and turned towards the front of the class. Alex turned towards the front of the class too. He wondered if Oliver really remembered everything from that night. He didnt mention them talking on the trampoline together. And he didnt say anything about them falling asleep next to each other. Alex was pretty sure they hadnt been spooning when he fell asleep. Oliver probably didnt even realise that they were spooning. He didnt mention it but surely he realised that Alex hadnt been there when he woke up. Alex was still completely lost in his thoughts when the bell rang signalling the end of class. It took a few seconds before he realised he'd daydreamed through the whole class. He picked up his books and followed Em out of the room. Alex turned briefly at the door to see Oliver in a conversation with a couple of other boys. He continued to follow Em outside of the building. She was waiting just outside.
"Are you alright?" she asked
"Yeah, i'm fine. Just thinking about some stuff."
"OK. I guess i'll see you in english this arvo"
Emily walked off towards her bag while Alex walked in another direction.
Alex heard footsteps behind him and turned to see Oliver jogging in his direction.
"Are you alright Alex?"
"yeah, why?"
"Well its just you were gone Sunday morning. And i thought i might have said or done something wrong."
Oliver looked towards his feet then back to Alex then back to his feet. Alex put his hand on Oliver's shoulder.
"Don't worry about it Oliver. I woke up and decided to go home and get some sleep in a real bed"
Alex gave Oliver a light tap in the arm.
"You were a perfect gentleman," he said with a cheeky grin.
A smile broke out onto Olivers face.
Just then they heard a call from across the school yard.
"Oliver," someone in the group of boys shouted, "what are you doing with that idiot? Hurry up"
Oliver turned to Alex and offered a half hearted smile before turning around and making his way to his friends. Alex's eyes followed him for a while before he finally turned around and made his way to his next class.
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Oliver turned up to school on monday morning fifteen minutes before the bell rang. He was an extremely popular among both staff and students. His ability to move between the different groups and cliques at the school without trouble got him a lot of respect and made him the well liked boy that he was. People rarely had a bad word to say about him. The girls wanted to be with him and the guys wanted to be friends with him, or be him. Oliver walked through the morning rush at school, greeting staff and students alike. He was tall and well built. Not muscular but toned, with what seemed like perfect skin and hair. He was sporty and it had helped shape his body. Oliver put his bag down and greeted his friends. They were discussing his party from the weekend. Recounting stories of who had hooked up with who and what they'd done. They turned to Oliver and asked him if he'd scored any action.
He offered his usual reply, "A gentleman doesnt kiss and tell."
They pressured him unsuccessfully for the next 5 minutes until the bell rang for the start of class. Oliver's friends dispersed into the crowd, heading towards their various classes. Oliver picked up his books and made his way towards his physics room on the other side of the school.
Alex walked into the noisy classroom and sat beside his friend Emily. He was skinny and deceptively tall, often walking with a slight hunch to hide his height. His wild curly hair had been tamed with water today.
"How was Oliver's party?" asked Em
"Its a pity you couldnt come"
"That bad?"
"It wasnt bad," said Alex, "but you know how those guys can be. And those girls as well."
"Yeah. I heard about Sally this morning. Sleeping with Tom then Luke then Tom again."
"I know. Those two guys are so disgusting too. I tried to stay away from them for most of the night."
"That's understandable. I dont know why Oliver is friends with them."
The second bell rang signalling the start of class. Oliver walked into the room and sat down beside Alex in the back row. He flashed a perfect toothy smile over at Alex and Em. The kind of smile that could melt ice and buckle knees. The elderly physics teacher walked into the room and started teaching without much of a change in the noise level. Emily leaned across the desk to talk to Oliver.
"How'd your party go on saturday?"
"It was good, a pity you couldnt come though."
Oliver was able to flirt with anyone. It was part of the reason he was so popular, he made people feel good.
"How'd you pull up on Sunday?" asked Alex.
Oliver looked towards Alex with a slight smile on his face. His bright green eyes seemed to bore right into the back of Alex's brain.
"I had a bit of a hangover," He said, "but i can remember the whole night."
He flashed another big smile at the two of them and turned towards the front of the class. Alex turned towards the front of the class too. He wondered if Oliver really remembered everything from that night. He didnt mention them talking on the trampoline together. And he didnt say anything about them falling asleep next to each other. Alex was pretty sure they hadnt been spooning when he fell asleep. Oliver probably didnt even realise that they were spooning. He didnt mention it but surely he realised that Alex hadnt been there when he woke up. Alex was still completely lost in his thoughts when the bell rang signalling the end of class. It took a few seconds before he realised he'd daydreamed through the whole class. He picked up his books and followed Em out of the room. Alex turned briefly at the door to see Oliver in a conversation with a couple of other boys. He continued to follow Em outside of the building. She was waiting just outside.
"Are you alright?" she asked
"Yeah, i'm fine. Just thinking about some stuff."
"OK. I guess i'll see you in english this arvo"
Emily walked off towards her bag while Alex walked in another direction.
Alex heard footsteps behind him and turned to see Oliver jogging in his direction.
"Are you alright Alex?"
"yeah, why?"
"Well its just you were gone Sunday morning. And i thought i might have said or done something wrong."
Oliver looked towards his feet then back to Alex then back to his feet. Alex put his hand on Oliver's shoulder.
"Don't worry about it Oliver. I woke up and decided to go home and get some sleep in a real bed"
Alex gave Oliver a light tap in the arm.
"You were a perfect gentleman," he said with a cheeky grin.
A smile broke out onto Olivers face.
Just then they heard a call from across the school yard.
"Oliver," someone in the group of boys shouted, "what are you doing with that idiot? Hurry up"
Oliver turned to Alex and offered a half hearted smile before turning around and making his way to his friends. Alex's eyes followed him for a while before he finally turned around and made his way to his next class.
Part One
This is the first part of a story i decided to write because i wanted to waste some time. I know its not brilliant or anything and i havent really edited it but i'd welcome any comments, ideas, or suggestions you have. Let me know what you think, Thanks
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She pulled the stereo out at the wall, killing the music.
"It's 1.30, You're either going home or going to sleep," She yelled.
A grumble rose up from the teenagers as the spotlights were going black. Small groups of teenagers began walking down the driveway into the darkness while others made their way to the house. The music briefly started again but the stereo was quickly turned off. Alex chucked one last stick into the bonfire. watching the embers rise up into the black night sky. He stood up from his log, grabbing the can beside him. It was nearly empty. He lifted it to his lips and finished the last of the drink before throwing the empty can into the fire. He zipped his jacket all the way up, trying to keep out the winter air. He started up the path towards the road putting his hands in his pocket as he went. Pretty much everyone had disappeared by now. Alex walked past the house, avoiding shrubs that were scattered around the yard. The cool, crisp air sent a shiver down his spine. The light from the moon provided enough light for Alex to see in the darkness. Ahead of him he could see a boy walking towards the trampoline, carrying blankets and pillows.
Oliver turned around and saw Alex walking towards him. He was hunched over and his hands were pushed as far into his pockets as they could go, trying to find some warmth. Oliver threw the pillows and sleeping bag onto the trampoline and made his was towards Alex. He grabbed Alex's arm.
"Thanks for coming to my party Alex."
"Thanks for inviting me"
Alex started walking down the driveway again but Oliver stood in his way.
"Where are you going?"
"I was just going to walk home, I dont think i should stay the night."
"Dont be silly Alex, you live on the other side of town and it's nearly 2 in the morning."
Oliver grabbed Alex by the arm, pulling him towards the trampoline.
"Stay and have a talk with me, I dont think i'll be able to go to sleep yet."
Alex reluctantly agreed as Oliver jumped onto the trampoline. Oliver unrolled his sleeping bag and slid into it. He grabbed a blanket and chucked it on top of his sleeping bag before propping his head up with pillows.
"get on the trampoline Alex. I wont bite"
Alex smiled as he got on the trampoline. It sagged under his weight as he lay down. Oliver and his sleeping bag slipped towards the middle of the trampoline.
"So you're sleeping out here tonight?"
"Yeah, it's such a nice night," said Oliver, "and Kate and Mark had sex in my bed earlier."
Alex and Oliver burst into laughter.
"we have to be quiet or else my mum will come out and get up us"
Both the boys looked up into the clear night sky. The stars were out in full force. A visible shiver ran down Alex's body. Oliver noticed.
"Shit, you must be freezing. Get under the blankets"
"Don't worry about it"
"Dont be stupid"
Oliver put his hands over Alex's chest, pulling him closer. Alex tried to wriggle away but Oliver wouldn't let him. He threw the blanket on top of Alex then put his body weight onto Alex's stomach so he could unzip his sleeping bag without Alex getting away. Eventually both the boys were next to each other underneat both the blanket and the sleeping bag. Oliver lifted up alex's head and gave him a pillow.
"It wasnt that hard now was it"
"I guess not," replied Alex, "thanks for inviting me to your party tonight. I know your friends dont like me"
"They like you"
"Ahh no," said Alex, "They hate me."
Oliver looked at Alex.
"Well it was my party, and i like you, And i'm glad you came."
Alex smiled, "thanks"
The boys continued to lie next to one another. Their arms ontop of one another so they could both fit on the trampolin and under the blankets.
"So Kate and Mark huh?"
The boys let out a small laugh before continuing their conversation for about another hour before they fell asleep.
Alex woke up at dawn, the sun shining into his eyes. Oliver was spooning him under the blankets. His arm was over the top of Alex's body, holding his hand tight into his chest. Alex wriggled his hand free from Oliver's grasp. He wiped his eyes before slipping out from underneath Olivers arm. He got off the trampoline carefully, trying not to wake his sleeping buddy. Oliver rolled into the middle of the trampoline before turning back over and cuddling a pillow. Alex picked his shoes up from the damp grass and started walking down the driveway.
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She pulled the stereo out at the wall, killing the music.
"It's 1.30, You're either going home or going to sleep," She yelled.
A grumble rose up from the teenagers as the spotlights were going black. Small groups of teenagers began walking down the driveway into the darkness while others made their way to the house. The music briefly started again but the stereo was quickly turned off. Alex chucked one last stick into the bonfire. watching the embers rise up into the black night sky. He stood up from his log, grabbing the can beside him. It was nearly empty. He lifted it to his lips and finished the last of the drink before throwing the empty can into the fire. He zipped his jacket all the way up, trying to keep out the winter air. He started up the path towards the road putting his hands in his pocket as he went. Pretty much everyone had disappeared by now. Alex walked past the house, avoiding shrubs that were scattered around the yard. The cool, crisp air sent a shiver down his spine. The light from the moon provided enough light for Alex to see in the darkness. Ahead of him he could see a boy walking towards the trampoline, carrying blankets and pillows.
Oliver turned around and saw Alex walking towards him. He was hunched over and his hands were pushed as far into his pockets as they could go, trying to find some warmth. Oliver threw the pillows and sleeping bag onto the trampoline and made his was towards Alex. He grabbed Alex's arm.
"Thanks for coming to my party Alex."
"Thanks for inviting me"
Alex started walking down the driveway again but Oliver stood in his way.
"Where are you going?"
"I was just going to walk home, I dont think i should stay the night."
"Dont be silly Alex, you live on the other side of town and it's nearly 2 in the morning."
Oliver grabbed Alex by the arm, pulling him towards the trampoline.
"Stay and have a talk with me, I dont think i'll be able to go to sleep yet."
Alex reluctantly agreed as Oliver jumped onto the trampoline. Oliver unrolled his sleeping bag and slid into it. He grabbed a blanket and chucked it on top of his sleeping bag before propping his head up with pillows.
"get on the trampoline Alex. I wont bite"
Alex smiled as he got on the trampoline. It sagged under his weight as he lay down. Oliver and his sleeping bag slipped towards the middle of the trampoline.
"So you're sleeping out here tonight?"
"Yeah, it's such a nice night," said Oliver, "and Kate and Mark had sex in my bed earlier."
Alex and Oliver burst into laughter.
"we have to be quiet or else my mum will come out and get up us"
Both the boys looked up into the clear night sky. The stars were out in full force. A visible shiver ran down Alex's body. Oliver noticed.
"Shit, you must be freezing. Get under the blankets"
"Don't worry about it"
"Dont be stupid"
Oliver put his hands over Alex's chest, pulling him closer. Alex tried to wriggle away but Oliver wouldn't let him. He threw the blanket on top of Alex then put his body weight onto Alex's stomach so he could unzip his sleeping bag without Alex getting away. Eventually both the boys were next to each other underneat both the blanket and the sleeping bag. Oliver lifted up alex's head and gave him a pillow.
"It wasnt that hard now was it"
"I guess not," replied Alex, "thanks for inviting me to your party tonight. I know your friends dont like me"
"They like you"
"Ahh no," said Alex, "They hate me."
Oliver looked at Alex.
"Well it was my party, and i like you, And i'm glad you came."
Alex smiled, "thanks"
The boys continued to lie next to one another. Their arms ontop of one another so they could both fit on the trampolin and under the blankets.
"So Kate and Mark huh?"
The boys let out a small laugh before continuing their conversation for about another hour before they fell asleep.
Alex woke up at dawn, the sun shining into his eyes. Oliver was spooning him under the blankets. His arm was over the top of Alex's body, holding his hand tight into his chest. Alex wriggled his hand free from Oliver's grasp. He wiped his eyes before slipping out from underneath Olivers arm. He got off the trampoline carefully, trying not to wake his sleeping buddy. Oliver rolled into the middle of the trampoline before turning back over and cuddling a pillow. Alex picked his shoes up from the damp grass and started walking down the driveway.
Friday, July 9, 2010
FML
I figure i should do an update, so here goes.
I got my results back for the past semester and i did terrible. So badly in fact that i got sent an official academic warning saying that if my results dont improve i'll be kicked out. So yay me. I still have one exam to go and i'm pretty sure i'll fail that too which will ,no doubt, make me feel wonderful.
If you've been looking at my twitter you will have noticed that i've been on a couple of dates recently. And i got extremely nervous about both of them. They both seemed to go well (its the one guy). I dont want to say too much yet but its looking good.
Its amazing how quickly you can go from being happy to not happy.
Thanks to the blogs that have linked to me recently. Sorry i couldnt write something better
I got my results back for the past semester and i did terrible. So badly in fact that i got sent an official academic warning saying that if my results dont improve i'll be kicked out. So yay me. I still have one exam to go and i'm pretty sure i'll fail that too which will ,no doubt, make me feel wonderful.
If you've been looking at my twitter you will have noticed that i've been on a couple of dates recently. And i got extremely nervous about both of them. They both seemed to go well (its the one guy). I dont want to say too much yet but its looking good.
Its amazing how quickly you can go from being happy to not happy.
Thanks to the blogs that have linked to me recently. Sorry i couldnt write something better
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