At The Movies

So i've been on a little bit of a movie watching spree lately. In the past couple of weeks i've seen more movies then usual so I thought i'd tell you what they were like (it's my blog I can do what I like :P).

Samson and Delilah
A great little australian movie that came out this year. It's won some pretty big awards too. It's the story of Samson and Delilah. Delilah looks after her elderley grandmother who makes art which later gets sold on for thousands more than she was paid. Samson sniffs petrol and loves delilah. She resists him at first. Later on they both get beaten up for different reasons and they steal a car and escape to the city. I liked this movie but it's not for everyone. There isn't much speaking and lots of it is in an aboriginal language.

The Invention of Lying
Don't bother. A average movie thats not terribly funny. Not bad but not good either.

Zombieland
Great. You should go and see this movie. It is hilarious. I went with sexy abs (we were kinda dissapointed that the cinema was so full). He had no idea what it was about and he was laughing.

Avatar
Wow. This movie looks amazing. And it's not one of those cheap 3D movies where they just have things flying at you for no reason. I had a bit of trouble with my 3D glasses though. Every so often things would bo a little fuzzy or out of focus. I wonder if other people had the same problem. I kept my glasses as a souvenier. I paid for them so why not. Thats them in the picture. They kinda make me look like i'm from the blues brothers (i should watch that movie again).
Anyway go and see avatar.


Next up I really want to see Where The Wild Things Are or Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs. Is it weird that i'm a 19 year old guy that wants to see an animated kids movie

Being Lead On : The Riveting Finale

Sorry it's so long

So I hadn't talked to DJ for a couple of weeks and had pretty much given up all hope that he'd grow a set of balls and be a man.

Sidenote: I've just remembered that the last time I talked to DJ he called me creepy cause I talked to much about wanting to meet him. That annoyed me. I was like of course I want to meet you. We've talked about dating and taking my virginity and lots of other things and you've stood me up twice. I want to know if you're all talk or if we'll actually end up meeting.

So I'd had told my internet friends about my plane to not pursue. Bronco then told me that one of his friends use to date DJ (maybe it was a friend of a friend). Anyway, Bronco told me that DJ was all talk and he lies about all these things etc, etc. I was like yeah I kinda figured he was more talk then action. A few days later I was talking to PhD. I asked him about DJ and when he had last talked to him. He said he had talked to him when he was on the coast. This was about the same time I last talked to him. Anyway, apparently DJ had been trying to get PhD to meet him. PhD said what about Tommy and DJ told him that he thought I was more friendship material. Not the impression I had got from my convo's with DJ. Anywho, PhD had said that DJ had to tell me that and some other stuff. Good to know that PhD was looking out for me.

So fast forward to a couple of days ago. I was on msn and DJ was on also. I couldn't decide whether to talk to him or not but in the end I decided to be civil. I mean it was his birthday. Here's how the conversation started.
Tommy
Hey you
Happy Birthday
DJ
i see you didn't wait for me..... . . .. .
brb dinner

Thats how the conversation went. No thanks. No Hello. (the brb thing happened quite a bit too). Anyway, I asked him what he meant and he said he'd heard about my boyfriend from PhD.

Sidenote: Yes I do have a boyfriend. I dont think i've mentioned him but from now on he shall be known as Abs not Flab, or sexy abs. I can't decide. It's only new so I dont want to ruin anything. I'll talk more about him later.

So PhD had let it slip about sexy abs. Apparently DJ had been talking about wanting to meet PhD and he had said I dont see a problem with that now the tommy has a boyfriend. I'm kinda glad he told him because it saved me doing it. The conversation just got awkward after that. PhD said he was thinking about meeting DJ. I said go for it. It might turn out better for you then it did for me.

So The other night I went to see Avatar (more about that later) with PhD. I asked him if he was still going to meet DJ. He told me that he had made tentative plans to meet DJ that day but that DJ had cancelled. hmmm sounds familiar I thought to myself. PhD said he wasn't going to pursue it further.

In conclusion I dont like guys like DJ

Anyway, Sorry its such a long story. Hope it makes sense. I'll keep you updated on any new developments. Feel free to leave a comment and i'll get back to you.

Being Lead On

So this happened to me a while ago but I decided to mention it because of recent developments.
Now i'm sure everyone has been lead on or lead people on. I'm probably guilty of leading people on myself. But what annoys me is those attention hunting whores who string people along on purpose, for fun. Playing and toying with people's hearts. They're bastards.

So a while ago this guy called DJ was trying to talk to me online. I turned him down for a couple of weeks due to things/people in my life. Anyway, I eventually decided to give him a go. He was really nice and charming and interesting and I was infatuated with him after not long. So we talked a fair bit about lots of things. Mainly to do with him because I seemed to have to drive the conversation. He was very charming and we talked about dating and lots of other stuff and we set up a time to see each other. I was really looking forward to our date but he cancelled on me (my general rule is you only get to stand me up once. If you stand me up a second time i'm going to move on). Apparently he was sick so I forgave him. We talked later that day. The same time our cancelled date would have been. He was still very charming and nice. Although I did say if you dont want to meet me just tell me and i'll leave you alone. To which he replied I didn't say i wanted to meet you I said I wanted to date you. Charming right.

Anyway we organised another date for the day after my exams finished. I couldn't wait for it and he knew given that my msn screenname was "I cant wait for the ......."
So we kept talking but he was really busy with work so we didn't talk for about a week before our planned date. I sent him many messages and and even an email or two but got no replies. So I finished all my exams and the day of our date came. And I sat at home waiting to hear from him. NOTHING. I was ready to rip him a new arsehole. I didn't hear from until about 2 o'clock that day, when he was online on facebook. GAHH. I was so angry and I let him know. He had excuses though and I kinda forgave him a bit.

Sidenote: I had told some of my internet friends about DJ. My friend whom I shall call princess (more about him later) had warned me about him almost immediately, even though he (princess)lives in Melbourne which is thousands of kilometers away. In hindsight I probably should have listened to him. DJ had also added one of my other friends on msn a little while after we started talking. My friend, whom shall henceforth be known as PhD, had let DJ know that he knew me from the beginning. My other internet friend that plays a part in this story shall be known as Bronco. He doesn't come into this story till later on.

So DJ had excuses and I forgave him a bit, stupid in hindsight. So I continued to start conversations with DJ but they were kinda awkward. After a while I got annoyed with it and came to the conclusion that I wouldn't start conversations with any guys. If they started them I would, of course, talk but I wouldn't be the persuer.
So the last time I talked to him was in late november. We talked about his work and if he was having fun on the coast (where he was working) and some other stuff. But then I got annoyed with him and stopped starting conversations.

END PART ONE...

YAY!!

So I just got my second follower. YAY!! Thanks to angel. Go have a look at his blogs. They're pretty good.

So i've decided that tonight will be a big night of blogging for a couple of reason
1) I'm incredibly bored. Yet another night sitting at home alone.
2) Lots of things have happenned lately that I need to talk about.
3) Tomorrow i'm going back to the farm for christmas. Unfortunately this means no mobile coverage or internet even though it's only a few hours from Brissy. Thank you Telstra. So I will be gone for the next 2 weeks and I doubt i'll get a chance to update my blog in that time.

In other news.
I finished buying all my christmas presents today and they are all imaculately wrapped. I did a good job if I say so myself :P

Anyways, on with the blogging

Bored

I'm kinda bored and I can't sleep so I thought i'd tell you about some things I like. This will be one of the random things in between as mentioned above.

I'm not really into music. Generally i'll just listen to whatever is on the radio. I dont have an ipod or mp3 player (though I hope I get one for christmas).

However, this is my favourite band at the moment. They're called bluejuice and they're an aussie band. My favourite song is Broken Leg and I sing along whenever it comes on the radio. Which can be embarrasing considering my singing abilities. I also love the film clip for Vitriol. The looks on those peoples faces. LOL

YAY!!

So I just got my first follower. YAY!! Thank you to Mikey. There should be a link to his blog on the side. Give it a read it's pretty interesting.

About me

So I thought i'd start by sharing a little about myself. I'm 19 years old and I live in the city of Brisbane, Australia. I'm originally from the country but moved here for university. I'm still confused about my sexuality. At the moment, in my mind, I call myself bisexual but if I was be totally honest its like >90% of the time I think about guys. Every so often I think about girls, what it would be like to be married and accepted into "normal" society but I dont think that'll happen. Mainly cause i'm more interested in guys and the fact that i'm really shy. Like awkwardly shy around people I dont know. I come from a large family and i'm the middle of 5 children. I wouldn't call myself attractive but i've been told otherwise so I guess thats a positive. Thats all for now because I have to get ready for work.

If you have any questions just leave a comment and i'll try and answer them. I'm still getting used to this blogging thing so it might take some time

Welcome

Hello and welcome to my blog.
I've decided to start this blog for a couple of reasons. Mainly because I need an outlet. Somewhere where I can be myself completely, say whatever I want without repercusions from my real life (hopefully). Another reasons is i've been reading a lot of other blogs lately about young guys coming to terms with themselves and their sexuality and I think they've helped me a little and while I dont expect heaps of people to read this the thought of just one person reading it makes me a little happy. Another reason is I think it could be fun and there's nothing wrong with that.