Tommy,
First of all i'd like to say congratulations. You have successfully proven that no one reads your blog. I know i am the only person that has asked you questions on that formspring website. Now i don't mind asking you questions but it does get a bit boring after a while, just so you know. I also know you don't really get any comments but i can't be bothered writing any of those.
I know you have been down and depressed lately. You need to realise that it's not that bad and it's just a phase and it will pass. Things are better since you have come out. It may not feel like it now but it's true. And in time you'll find all those things that you're looking for (Like a boyfriend and some great friends). I understand that uni is stressing you out and you have lots of stuff thats needs to be done but you'll make it through. Once you get back into a good uni/study routine things will get better. I realise that you're having trouble focusing on your uni work but it will get better.
Apparently you're thinking about quitting work. All i can say is that you have to do whats right for you. Personally, I think it's a good idea. You only work a couple of hours a week and i know you don't think it is that good. You'll be able to survive on your centrelink payments, you use to live off less. If you quit it will give you more time to focus on uni. I know you realise that you cant fail any more courses. However, before you quit i think you should talk to your mother and see what she says about it. I know you feel a little obligated towards your bosses because they have been so good to you but you need to look out for yourself first.
I know you've been a bit upset about your friends, or lack of friends. Princess is right. You need to go out there and make friends. I know that you saw lots of gay guys at uni today, and they were in their pairs or little groups and you were a little disheartened. That you wished you could have that. You can and you will. It just might take some time. Just remember to respect yourself.
Best of luck with everything. You will make it through everything and you'll be a better person when you do.
Yours Sincerely,
Tommy xoxo
still alive
4 months ago
Dude, what was that in aid of? That sounded awfully like a depressed letter to yourself..., or am I well off the mark? Anyways, I always read your posts mate, even though I don't often comment, I do always read them. Is it because your comments have dropped off lately that you are in part feeling this way? If so, don't let it get you down, we all go through that.
ReplyDeleteYou do sound rather down though, wish I could cheer you up some. As far as Uni goes, yeah it is tough..., if it wasn't then everyone would be doing it, just hang in there mate. As for friends, IDK? Maybe stop trying do hard, sometimes friends are found at the weirdest of times and places. You just have to be ready when that time comes.
Drop me a line if you are lonely, honestly mate, I'll chat your ear off, and usually with the most mundane shit, but atleast i'll also listen to what you have to say. If you want to, you can find my details on my blog page.
It's never as bad as it first seems mate.
Hugs, Courage and Honour!
Octavius.
Courage. Determination. Fortitude. Honor. Flight. Fun. Friends. Love.
ReplyDeleteI'm like a little suprised... I read, I listen, I don't like comment... What Octavius says makes a lot of sense... I do listen... call me!
ReplyDeleteWhy am I going to use something if I have nothing to ask?
ReplyDeleteNow you know I have left comments on the last 3 posts so you know I'm reading your blog
Now as for this letter you wrote to yourself, I'm not going to play guessing games with it and will wait until you say how you feel.
If you don't say anything about it then that's fine it's your life and your choice and I'm not going to force you to do stuff you don't want too
Take care,
Ethan